It’s about three and a half months into this cultivation cycle. One thing that I’m noticing is that risks don’t seem as risky. They’re still risks of course. But there’s stuff to support the outcome whichever way things go. So I’m not as concerned with second-guessing.
I’m moving to Pasadena this week. There’s risks involved with that for sure. Lots of unknowns. But I know its better for my productivity and development than staying in my Dad’s literal closet-room. I say literal because there’s so many books in there.
I’m actually looking forward to packing. I’ll get some boxes on my way home. The idea of wrapping things up in such a visceral way…it feels good.
A strange thing about the cultivation is that the focus comes in cycles. It seems like everything is a cycle these days. There will be a couple weeks of wanting to read a lot of actual physical book stuff. Then there’s a transition to wanting to exercise a lot. Now I’m in the phase where I want to watch interesting videos. I’m sure when I move it will all just cycle again.
Nauticaboy has been talking about Valuetown all the time. That’s interesting because I feel like I’m getting more “value” out of life. This is from a sheer time-existence point of view. There are days where not a single minute goes by that didn’t have a place. Everything has a spot to go into. It’s obvious that I’m going to take this as far as it goes.
My car is getting maintenance right now. It is going to cost me over 600 dollars to have a 3 year maintenance. That is a lot of money to me. But the cultivation helped me think with some foresight. I saw the letter come in the mail that said I needed to do the 30k maintenance or else 3 years…whichever comes first.
It has been a little less than 3 years so I’m like, “OK whatever dude.”
But a little foresight says that I’ve already had the letter in the back of my mind for the past 3 days. I know getting the maintenance will decrease my stress and keep my focus on work and productivity…but there’s the financial sting.
So here I am…at Starbucks. I’m not at home because I’m getting the maintenance done. I’d rather just do it and not have to think about it, than second guess myself later down the line while commuting between Pasadena and Newport Beach for work. I don’t need to double check to see if it’s the right call. I know it is. That’s what cultivation is doing at this stage in the cycle. Risks aren’t really the same as they used to be. There’s still variables, there’s still unknowns, but the constant is that I’ll have the energy to deal with the future.
Creatively, things are going well. There is a new story I’ve been working on that takes place in Iraq of 2003. It’s exciting but the characters are just about to enter a deep hole in the desert into an unknown area. This entering the unknown has been a barrier because there haven’t been a lot of unknowns from me to draw from. But moving to a new place which is a basement room is kind of like entering the subterranean depths…hopefully it comes across in the writing.
-Tyler
