Power Station
Things have been rolling along quite well. The last time I cultivated for this long, I ended up with a girlfriend. But this time the results are much better…I got a job! That’s what I’m talking about. The energy is all a part of the same thing, the same system. Being able to understand that there is no limit to the amount of energy in this world…just a limit of time. And the problem is that it takes a month or more to properly cultivate a good energy state. I feel like I’ve activated to the heart and throat chakras right now. But that is really just scratching the surface. There has been 3 NE’s so far during 006 and I have no problem with that. But one thing I’ve noticed for sure, is that exercising at the gym and singing is a completely different ball game. I think the gym is a mix of the first chakra all the way up to the heart chakra. Please note that I label the chakra numbers relativistically depending on the goal of the energy flow.
Since I am only 30 years old for one more day, it is important to reflect on life and see if I’ve actually learned anything of true value. One thing that I’ve learned is that cause and effect, sin, karma, and energy are all quite real. By taking notes and listening to my mentors and body itself, I’ve come to understand that backsliding is not a powerful bear that will forever stalk a man in his endeavors. Backsliding is exactly what it sounds like. It is a slippery mountain that has strong gusts of wind pass through it. At first, I was not strong enough or well equipped to even make an attempt to tramp the mountain possible. But now I’ve built some shoes with strong treads, listened to others about correct posture, and exercised the muscles in order to make that mountain seem at least traverse-able in the near future.
Have their been outflows during 006A, yes there has been. But none of them have been full outflows that would require me to reset the cycle to a 007. So for that I’m glad.
I’ve been able to read longer sessions of complicated books like. “The Tao of Physics.” Also other books on Ancient Sumerian history and language have been part of my reading regiment. Blogging has become more constant, and the content produced has been more substantial than brief updates and minor commentary.
The old zen koan of the overfilling cup of tea applies here. I’ve emptied the tea cup and overfilled it so many times than now I’m simply ready for a larger cup of tea.
Being Catholic, I’ve had to come with the equilibrium of what I’ve learned from Catholicism and what I’ve learned from Buddhist philosophy and also Hindu wisdom imparted by friends and gurus. Even though these different things seemed taboo to mix and strange, I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a seeker and always will be. So basically if anyone has a problem with anything I’ll just redirect them to this blog.
There was this AWESOME game called Sid Meyer’s Alpha Centauri. In that game there was a way to have citizens of a city become either a worker, or a disgruntled rebel or a doctor. But some citizens later in the game could actually become luminous people and send positive healing energy to the cities they are in. Unfortunately, I chose the leadership style of eternal suffering by using a “Punishment Sphere” which forced the entire population into permanent fear. This really did a great job of limiting crime and maximizing productivity, but no transcendent citizens were allowed to exist and evolve within such a draconian regime. So I couldn’t reap the benefits of those citizens.
I think it might be high time to replay the game and see what happens if those types of people are allowed to flourish. It could probably be interesting.
Now, cultivating for a little over a month in a cycle made of Swiss-cheese is no where near becoming a transcendent luminous person. But now I have another goal, since I was able to finish school. I know I want to do good work and that seems like it will be very doable. But continuing to cultivate, even though the initial objective has been met is very appealing.
So now the mountain looks a little different. There are plateaus and paths and some have been carved out by others and some need to be chiseled and blasted with dynamite. The whole process is making me re-evaluate the purpose of my existence and especially how I plan on carrying out this existence.
When I was in my late teens and early 20’s, I had this notion that the world was hurt or damaged in some way and it needed to be fixed. Then in my mid to late 20’s I felt powerless and weak to do anything and everything seemed daunting and overwhelming. The past two years have made me realize that the world is extremely complicated, but there are certain systems that we can count on and predict. Also, there are large groups and pockets of people as well as talented individuals that are in the same boat. So my purpose in life has changed to trying to do some big thing, to just picking small steps and focusing on them, and then actually completing the small step that I set out to do. This can be with the help of others or by myself entirely.
By taking a more relaxed, and energized approach to life, I’ve been able to accept help from family members, teachers, mentors, spiritual leaders, and friends. And the end result is that there is less guilt in my life. And that’s pretty good.
There’s less of that feeling of, “I’m on borrowed time.” It hasn’t completely gone away, but it is manageable. And that tiny peace of mind has been worth…well, I can’t even imagine a numerical or physical value for it. So, let’s just say that I’m not interested in giving it up anytime soon.
-Tyler